Probably the biggest question in life is always "Why?". Problem is, no one knows. No one can answer it for you but you. Is that we keep secrets from ourselves? I mean, do we know the answer to that question but we tuck it away and just ignore it? Why....it's one that creaps up on me time and again.
I've started to think that maybe, just maybe it's time for a massive break from things. Maybe just turning off the computer completely, but it is like a bad addiction because I'm an email addict. On the weekends I check it pretty regularly just because. During the week it's usually two or three times a day. And that means, I am tied down to my computer. I can get lost in the internet. It's not just for porn ya know.
There are cobwebs in my head again and I don't know how to clear them out exactly, but, perhaps tomorrow is that long walk day. (if it's not raining) It always seems to help. Just pop in some music and start walking. It's funny because as long as there is music, I don't really need a direction or place to go...I can just walk. Yeah, there's always stuff on the brain ain't there? Seems that all those cobwebs and dust bunnies never really go away completely. Maybe I just need a good mental floss? (ok, so I can still attempt bad humor)
Christmas is coming up. I have something for my mom thank god. Cards have gone out. Now I simply have to wait for one last thing to arrive hopefully on Monday and I can send out my packages.
And again, I ask why. I wish I knew other than a large portion of me says, "Because you love." I just hope that is enough. It kinda has to be because what else is there if you don't have love? Doesn't matter if you are giving it or recieving it, it's like air...rather I think it is. Then again I'm a stupid romantic.
Be safe. Be well. Be PROUD! Be Loved
4 comments:
Well, there's nothing wrong with being romantic.
And I totally agree on the walk thing. It's great for brooding, and usually you just feel better afterwards. Have a nice walk!
Being romantic is not stupid. And I doubt you're stupid. We might do stupid things, but we're not stupid.
As for the walk, it's because, first you do work on some of the questions in your head, second the exercise creates stuff that make us feel better.
If you walked more or did other exercises, you'd feel better more often.
BTW, e-mail me the details of this post. Meaning, what the hell's wrong?
Let me know.
Sweety, sometimes it's time to do a hard reboot, and when you're ready, hit the START button. It happens.
That's the problem with life... it's hard to tell what's behind the door. Is it the lady or the tiger? Sometimes you pick the lady, and sometimes you pick the tiger. And sometimes it's best to say, "Fuck the door" and turn around and walk away.
Big hugs from this coast... Maybe it's time for you to come back to this coast for some respite. The John Malkovich room is still open.
being in motion stirs the brain for me as well. I love to walk in the highlands.
Just remember not to get lost in yourself. And sometimes the best answer to Why is Why Not? Some of the best writings in the world have come from the struggle between those two questions.
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