Tuesday, December 20, 2005

If it's Tuesday, it must be Monday

Ya ever had one of those days when you knew it wasn't Monday but it might as well have been? That's how this one started off for me. I managed to get up on time although, and I don't know what the hell I'm doing in my sleep, my neck was killing me and I felt exhausted. Now last night I did eat pretty late and had made my rum balls (which look pretty dern good I must say) so maybe that was it.

Work was work...until....he came in. So I look up and there is Ben. For some reason my heart just sort of sank a bit. I was actually feeling fine about all of this until I saw him again. Not a word was said about any of the messages I had sent him on myspace. Being a consumate actor, I put on my best face and acted as blaze as he did. What I wanted to do was drag him into the kitchen and just say to him "What the fuck man? What the fuck? I've tried the easy way but now I'm gonna play hardball and just ask you are you interested in even getting to know me as a friend or not?" .... but I didn't. We'll see if he comes back in again tomorrow. Hell, I doubt he knows about this site but if he does read it...guess the cat is ultimately out of the bag now isn't my lovelies?

So that kinda took an extra toll on me. I felt even shittier after that because I thought I had dealt with whatever I had to deal with in reguards to him. Just depressed the hell out of me. More over, he STILL hasn't responded to what I wrote and that was last week even yet already. This of course brings up the question of, "why the hell do I feel like not matter how much I try or don't try, I remain single?" I leave that question up to the Gods at this point because I'm over it (for the most part). I mean it. If this is what trying to date someone is like...fuck it! I'll wait until someone who actually seems to care comes along ya know? Ack....I'm getting myself aggitated here so enough of this.

The rest of the day was renting movies after work. I slept through Brothers Grim but felt better after the nap. Now that it's too late to cook, I think I'll watch a little of either Cry Wolf of the Exorcism of Emily Rose both of which I wanted to see in the theatre and missed. Guess I'm a sucker for horror films.

Now this of course means, I have to cook doubly tomorrow night to be back on schedual. Ah well...long as I get an early start on it and a decent night's sleep tonight, I think I'll be ok.

Four more days. Four more days til Christmas and I have two presents bought and around 5 people I want to get something for. I just can't get the gumption up to go to the malls this year. Not sure how I'm gonna pull this off but we'll see now won't we? I'm hoping that I'll be eating with the family on Christmas Eve and then maybe with my friends the Brentnalls on Christmas Day. Course to me, it's just a weekend. Yup...I lost that Christmas Spirit again so if ya find mine please email it or send it in a text message cause I need it for a little while longer.

Lastly though, ya know how you make yourself feel better? You finally go and buy new shoes cause you're old ones are maybe two years old! So I went out to Shove Pavillion and was lookin round and saw these hot little numbers for $39. (of course I also bought another pair of shoes that were nicers and were $49). When I got to the reg, they price came up as $19.99! CHA CHING! Major savings for me and new shoes to work in....tell me what ya think.



6 comments:

. said...

I have a similar pair that are black and white and I absolutely love them, however my kids refuse to let me wear them out of the house!

Rey a.k.a. "Mr. Secret" said...

I have a pair of John Fluvogs that are black with orange flames... HOT shoes!!

And I LOVED Emily Rose... As I told you the other night on the phone, I studied hauntings, possessions, entities and the paranormal for two years in college and I studied her case. They were pretty damn accurate with the actual case! Great movie...

Rey a.k.a. "Mr. Secret" said...

Damn it, I forgot to comment about what I wanted to comment about...

So.... Ben. It seems like the awkwardness is there, but honestly, I think it might be good to pull back from him. Whatever his glitch is, he's obviously not handling it well. I know how easy it is to say, "Forget him", but I also know how hard it is to heed that advice. So I think you need to try to not let him win. I think you were wise to play it safe with him, instead of confronting him... at least not yet. Right now, the guilt on his end is pretty strong. And if you think about it, if he wanted to avoid you, he could have gone to a different shop. So there is some sort of intrigued there. But to be on the safe side, you should pull back and try to get him out of your head. Either he will respond favorably to that, or you'll be on your way towards moving on.

Steve said...

Sending a little Christmas cheer/love your way. And, those shoes are fierce!

Spencer said...

I love horror movies. Um dude the shoes well we need to talk! Haven't seen you around in a while did I say something wrong?

Miladysa said...

Merry Christmas and all the best for the New Year!

Love you xxx