I had it...I bloody well had it, then I went to the bank and pulled some money for dinner...that's when I lost it. Yup, that Yultide spirit is kinda lacking currently. I know I get paid again this week but dammit...that leaves me almost no time to shop really. Sigh...yeah I know cry me a friggin river eh?
So I'm afraid I'm starting down a little bit of a slippery slope here, one that I am sure I can pull myself out of. See, I spent the better part of the weekend doing very little. I got my christmas card finished but I haven't printed them yet. So the slope would be a lack of motivation. I was all set to clean today after I got breakfast, and of course there was an hour of playing Xmen Legends II...but hey I still had the better part of the afternoon right? So looking to see what I could put on the tube to listen to whilest I cleaned....I got sucked into Broadway The American Musical (love documentaries about entertainment industry stuff) and POOF...the day was gone. Another work week staring me dead in the eyes, I got off my lazy ass and went to the shop to do my list for tomorrow. Now? It's friggin 8pm here and I have done absolutely nothing all weekend that I had planned to do.
So I put it out there to all of y'all....how do you keep your motivations going? Be it going to the gym, dieting, trying to save money, writing more...whatever it is. I swear I'm starting to think that I'm just a lazy f'er ya know? I would blame work and the lack of a vacation and blah blah blah but we'd all know I was just lyin'. I think if I had say 4 days off I'd be so damn lazy that all I'd do would be eat and sleep. Starting to think that maybe there is something wrong here in my life but I can't pinpoint it. Just too wierd.
Probably just the holiday blues or something so I'll get over it. Shit, I have to because if I sink way down into it....I have a bad feeling that all sort of shite is gonna hit the fan. Ah well...least I got to hang out with D this past week. I need to get out more dammit. I know that's part of it. Maybe it's just time for another radical change in life or something. Maybe a new job (if I can find one that pays me more and I don't have to be up at the butt crack of dawn). Ah well...it's all conjecture at this point.
I'm going to eat and watch a movie cause I'm feeling like being a slug again. And jeez...I just yesterday was my 6 months here on this site. I obviously know how to ramble heheh.