Damn me. Although that seems redundant at the moment. No...damn him! No...damn me for being stupid. grrrrrrr.
Why am I so stupid when it comes to love and crushes? Why am I so damn pathetic? I swear if I could just sit down opposite myself for a while and talk to me (yes this sounds rather psychotic but the fact is I have often thought about facing myself) for a while maybe...just maybe I could actually convince whatever part of my brain misfires to stop getting crushes.
It's not Altboy's fault. I get these stupid crushes where I go into fantasy realm and I get so damn mad at myself when I do it. I see a pretty smile and they're nice to me, and I start wondering and the fantasy begins and I just need to learn that it's not real. I need to get my brain rebooted maybe. Hell, maybe I have some wierd trojan in there, who knows.
Feh. I'll fill everyone in later. Just rather agro about it right now. I think it's time for some quality me and the Karate film time.