Tuesday, August 30, 2005

New Orleans and family

So I appologise in advance cause I'm a bit emotional right now. I'm not cryin or nothing but they all seem really close to the surface. My brother, his wife, and my new little niece all live in New Orleans. I watched a bunch of vid clips trying to see the area of town that I know they live in but under all that water I can't make out what is what even. If it hadn't been for Dan calling me, I wouldn't have even know how bad it is out there and that it was basically completely flooded.
My brother and his wife have a house near Lake Ponchatrain (SP?). This is the brother that I don't really seem to get along with, or talk with because of stupid shit. Now all I can think of is that their house may not be there when they get back, and did they get out in time. He works as a Dr. in an ER somewhere in New Orleans, I don't even know where. I just hope they all got out alright before the levee broke.

I keep trying to tell myself that if something really horrible happened that I'd get a call from my mom, or my other brother in Texas. I'm not so sure now. I'm starting to think that I have completely fucked up my family relationships. My brothers never contact me and I don't contact them because it just seemed that they didn't care enough to bother getting in touch with me ever. Much as we don't even know one another anymore, I really hope that I'll hear something.

I really am a rat bastard of the family. I'm probably the black sheep. I have no clue and what's worse...I really don't care that much. Do care enough to worry about if everyone is ok though. Other than that, I am heartless and calloused from years of being odd man out in my own family.

My advice? Tell the people that you care about you love them with great frequency.

6 comments:

. said...

It is never too late to forge new relationship with those that you love. My prayers and thoughts are with your family. I am sure they will be OK. Keep us sposted.

Angel said...

I will be praying for your family and so will my family. I will also add your name in the people who need prayers at my church.

May they be safe in the loving care of the lord, or whatever religon your in.

Love n Peace,
Angel

Adam said...

I pray that your brother and his family are well. I cannot imagine what it must be like for the people affected by the hurricane. I hope that you hear something soon.

Spencer said...

Have your family in my prayers! I gave to the red cross also more people need too!

So people open up your wallets!

The Other Half said...

it's always a tragedy that brings families closer

angreeblkcub said...

Hoping that all is well for your brother and family. I hadn't realized how bad things were down there until this morning when I watched the news. *hugs*